Bored

So I have come to find out that I have to start all over again! Once again I have to start my life all over again! So coming back to the valley thought It would be ok because I have friends down here but come to find out I have friends but not good one’s. The one’s I used to hang with all the time before I left all have moved on. Some are still here but they and I are not the same! I have tried to hang with them but Its just to boring! I have been hanging with some new people and they are cool! I think they may be the new one’s. One thing is that my little bro hangs all the time with me. Now I don’t mind it most of the time but after awhile it gets annoying. It nice to hang with people my own age by my self some times! I don’t know. I have been having a hard time with the whole friends thing allot lately and I have come to find out that I don’t spend as much time with God as I should. I really miss God! I miss spending time with him!!! God has shown me that I need to learn to love, worship, listen and have faith in him all over again! God has been really showing me some things he wants me to do and i have just been afraid to do them! Last week i went out side and was spending time with God and tried to write but I just could not do it! So then I started to sing and I was just singing for a long time and loud! It was amazing! I was just singing to god and telling me how much I loved him and how much he means to me and just on and on…… I am learning to be with him all over again! He is showing me how to love. He is giving me the strength to do his will. One thing that I have notest is that the people I used to hang with are not the same when it comes to God. We used to spend hours with God. Its like they have lost there relationships with God. like they have lost there vision! It seems like all they care about is having fun with there friends. They have become satisfied with their lives even though God has more for them! And there are some things that I just make me ohh I don’t know I just don’t under stand what they are thinking! Parts of me wish it was like last year but I know it can never be that way again! I have to trust God and believe that He knows what he is doing (which I do ). I am going to keep trusting God and not going to let them get me down! They may be in a hole but I am not going to let that happen to me! I want what my father has for me!!!! I want to be blessed and used by him! I see what he wants and I am going to push foreword with or with out any body! I am strong in Christ! As long as I am doing his will I am good!

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